Gamerscore year 3

I have had my Xbox for 3 years! As of dec. 31, 2011 I have 59,322 gamerscore. Falling well below my goal of 75,000. Buying a PS3 in October certainly didn't help anything. My goal for the end of this year is still 75,000. Let's see if I can make it this time.

Gather The Dust.

Kinect was a failure buy. we don't play it at all. about an hour or so was spent playing Kinect Adventures and nothing about it was great. The Gunstringer still interests me but we'll see if i ever put in the effort to plug it in and play.

Let's give this a shot.

Kinect came out on November 4th last year and i have been kicking and screaming about it since it's release (and in some cases even before). About how there won't be any hardcore games for it and it'll just be another Wii. my interest has grown over the last few months with games like The Gunstringer, Forza 4, Halo Anniversary, and Tintin the game either supporting or exclusively using KInect i started wondering what it's all about. As it turns out Ashley's cousin wanted to get rid of his for the low price of 50 bucks. so we took him up on the offer. it sits on our coffee table now waiting to be used. Kinect Fun Labs has just finished downloading. The show is about to begin...

year two is done. with a total of 38,696 (an average of 19,348 each year) i fell short of my 50,000 point goal. by this time next year i want 75,000.

Another Year, Another List. My Top 25 Albums (The 2010 Edition)

So last year i made a list of my top 25 favourite albums and I've been thinking about it lately. I've added a ton of great new music to my iPod and figured it was time to update the list. So here it is. My 25 favourite albums ever. (this Year at least).

1 Catch For Us The Foxes - mewithoutYou

2 Again, For The First Time - Bleach

3 Funeral - Arcade Fire

4 Whatever People Say I Am, That's What I'm Not - Arctic Monkeys

5 Hi-Fi Revival - The O.C. SuperTones

6 The Question - Emery

7 Favourite Worst Nightmare - Arctic Monkeys

8 Neon Bible - Arcade Fire

9 Boxer - The National

10 Reverie Sound Revue - Reverie Sound Revue

11 No Sir, Nihilism Is Not Practical - Showbread

12 Damn Dude, Damn - Cyrus Fell Down

13 A Solider, A Saint, An Ocean Explorer - Finn Riggins

14 Windsurfing Nation - Broken Social Scene

15 The Weak's End - Emery

16 The Boy Vs. The Cynic - John Reuben

17 Some People Have Real Problems - Sia

18 The Builders And The Butchers - The Builders And The Butchers

19 Is This It? - The Strokes

20 Bitter Blue - Karli Fairbanks

21 Brother, Sister - mewithoutYou

22 Flashlights - So Many Dynamos

23 Fourteen Autumns & Fifteen Winters - The Twilight Sad

24 The Age Of The Understatement - The Last Shadow Puppets

25 Coeur De Pirate - Coeur De Pirate

Please Note: Album rankings are in no particular order (Except for #1. Catch For Us The Foxes it without a doubt my favourite album of all time)

I wrote this for You. [i hope you like it]

Before He lies down He grabs a teddy bear

He clutches it close and doesn't let go

He pretends it's Her.

As the tears start to roll down his face

He thinks of Her.

How happy She makes Him.

It helps

But missing Her is too much for His heart to handle.

As He sobs into the fabric

He holds it tighter.

Just wishing that he could be with her.

She's the most amazing girl in the world to Him

He feels invincible when He's with Her.

The sound of Her voice instantly calms Him down.

If only He could hear it in this moment.

His weakest.

The moment He needs it the most.

Her hugs are the best.

Strong and comforting, there are never enough for Him.

Her kisses are magic.

Tender and loving, they leave Him begging for more.

The spaces between His fingers were made for Hers.

Her smile lights up his day.

Looking at Her pictures makes his eyes glimmer.

If only for a second.

There's no place He'd rather be than by Her side every night

Whispering sweet 'I Love You's' into Her ear.

She's everything to Him.

He wants to spend every moment with Her.

But, alas,

She is there

and He is here.

They'll be together someday.

But until then,

He'll just have to hold on to that teddy bear

Until He can hold on to Her once more.

I Need You, Ashley

So last night before i went to bed i kept hoping that you were there waiting. i kept wising that i could sleep next to you and whisper 'I love you' into your ear. i kept wishing that i could kiss you. that i could wrap my arms around you [and never let you go]. i miss you. i miss hugging you and kissing you. i miss the sound of your voice. i miss holding your hand. I Love You. i cannot wait for forever to start with you. it will be amazing. you are amazing. i have never felt this way about anyone before. yo make me feel so good about myself. you have proven me wrong. Someone truly amazing can love me. i am so amazing happy now that you are in my life. I cannot wait to see you. i cannot wait to sleep next to you. i cannot wait to be with you. You're so amazing. kind and caring. beautiful and dorky [in the best possible way]. i cannot get enough of you and all of the amazingness that you have to offer. thank you for all that you have done [the ornaments, and cards and the night we spent together [it's the most amazing night i have ever had]]. just the thought of you makes me smile. I Love You, Ashley Lynn. Every single thing about You. You're the girl of my dreams. you're my final thought before i go to sleep and my first thought when i wake up in the morning. I Love You. I Love You. I Love You.

One Year.

i've only had my Xbox for a year and i managed to aquire 22,780 Gamerscore.

Let's see how much i can get this year.

my goal it to have 50,000 by the end of the year.

Goodbye past, Hello future [November 6th marks the start of something amazing]

I’ve been stuck on my past for too long now. And today is the day it changes. I met someone amazing. Someone caring, kind sweet and really beautiful. Someone I want to be with for a very long time. Her name is Ashley. He puts the biggest smile on my face. There are not words that make describe how happy she makes me. Finally, I've found the person I've been waiting all this time for.

Dear You

dealing with you has become much more of a chore since i found out about the stupid shit you do. much more sadness and frustration and sadness and fewer kicks and giggles. you're not the you i thought you were (and i don't much care for the you you are these days). it feels like we should cut it off before it gets worse. you don't care and it feels like you did but you hit a wall and said: "well, fuck this kid" and you just left. the words you say have no meaning anymore. it all feels like bullshit that yousay just so i'll stick around long enough to help you with your problems when all the shit comes crashing down. then (and only then) will you realize how worthwhile of a person i am. i deserve so much better than guessing you you give a crap. that's not fair to me. so i'll leave while you don't notice. and when all the shit comes crashing down and you come crawling back? it'll be too little too late. i'll be long gone.

10 Songs You Really Should Be Listening To (My Summer Playlist)

Quiet Little Voices - We Were Promised Jetpacks
I Was A Wreck Avoiding The Wreck Involving The Road - Cyrus Fell Down
Crying Lightning - Arctic Monkeys
Wake Up - The Arcade Fire
Search Party - So Many Dynamos
Gunfight - Boy Eats Drum Machine
Slow Show - The National
Glove Compartment - Finn Riggins
Green Eyes - Discover America
The Size Of My Fist - The Woodrow Wilsons

Top 25 Albums - In No Particular Order.

1. Catch For Us The Foxes - mewithoutYou
2. Neon Bible - Arcade Fire
3. Funeral - Arcade Fire
4. The Question - Emery
5. Again, For The First Time - Bleach
6. Hi-Fi Revival - The Orange County SuperTones
7. Whatever People Say I Am, That's What I'm Not - Arctic Monkeys
8. Favourite Worst Nightmare - Arctic Monkeys
9. Damn Dude, Damn - Cyrus Fell Down
10. The Boy Vs. The Cynic - John Reuben
11. Broken Social Scene - Broken Social Scene
12. You Forgot It In People - Broken Social Scene
13. Boxer - The National
14. Is This It? - The Strokes
15. No Sir, Nihilism Is Not Practical - Showbread
16. [A-->B] Life - mewithoutYou
17. The Weak's End - Emery
18. Oh, Inverted World - The Shins
19. Flashlights - So Many Dynamos
20. They're Only Chasing Safety - UnderOath
21. Bitter Blue - Karli Fairbanks
22. Brother, Sister - mewithoutYou
23. A Solider, A Saint, An Ocean Explorer - Finn Riggins
24. The Bare Truth About Philmore - Philmore
25. Give Up - The Postal Service

nickole's poem for sean

&superman's here to save you
to take you up, up and away.
fix all your probems,
bbydoll, unlike the others,
maybe he wont run away.
Super human strength make him capable
of handling all your stress,
Always able to handle your pressure.
Best friends forever means forever,
Even if millions of miles seperate you.
Holding hands, fingers intertwined,
Together we'll take on the world,
Together we can fly away.
Leave behind the acid and the drugs
Leave behind the people that judge,
Just me and you together,
Best friends til the end.

inhaling thrills through 20 dollar bills

go ahead
take your clothes off.
because apparently that's all your worth.
oh, and those drugs you're consuming?
go ahead and shovel them down your throat until you feel nothing
you're changing
but why?
we both know that you are better than clothes on the floor.
better that the shit you inhale to make you "feel better"
it breaks my heart knowing that you are doing what you were so strongly against.
nice job, hypocrite
now every word that falls out of your mouth means nothing.

I'd write you a dictionary to verbalize your brilliance

Do you remember when we met?
I do.

I was fifteen. Young, aspiring.

You were bold, and seemingly fearless.
And over time, i've grown to make realizations of you and all your worth.


You once created fireflies in my eyes, years upon years ago. They lit up my face with a glow that was more than empowering. I felt alive.

If I could vebalize just how amazing you are and have been to me, we'd be here a long, long time.




I have tried. But relentlessly, I feel like I have failed. I'd have to create new words for proof, but i'm not sure if it is time for that.



The fireflies are gone, but my eyes still get a dim glimmer when I speak to or of you.


I'd dedicate my written dictionary to you and hope that I could make you feel as important as you did to me when you woke up at 3 a.m. every morning to leave me those 'have a great day' voicemails.


Three years have flown by us, haven't they? But I still admire you.

Thanks to Brandi for writing this for me.